Hm I really feel like actually applying myself and making something wonderful...but I'm so lazy Every time I start something on PS I just stop because I find the little details annoying at the moment. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that school is returning on Monday. How absolutely distasteful. I'm becoming addicted to DA. As wonderful as that is, I don't want to be addicted to anything regarding the computer at the moment so I shall not hang around too much. Instead I'll be reading; I just bought The Da Vinci Code at Chapters yesterday. So far it is intriguing.

Lately, while reading books, doing homework, looking at art on DA, and looking at little flash videos, I seem to be finding a reoccuring theme that presents itself in my mind while pondering on these things. It's that there are no short cuts to greatness. Sure there are some things that you can do to make the road easier; but honestly, there is nothing easy about becoming great—whatever your idea of greatness is (okay maybe not if your idea of greatness is being a couch potatoe ). I'm not being conceited when I say that I am capable at a very wide variety of things. There's not a lot of reasonable things that I really cannot do. I can do a lot of things to a certain degree. But that's just my problem. That's where I stop: "at a certain degree." I never find myself great at anything; and lately, this reoccuring theme is teaching me something about myself. I never try to go further than that "certain degree" because I am lazy and cannot bother myself to put in the extra effort it takes to get past that.

I can draw, but not great. I can play the violin, but not great. I can write well, but not great. I can do pretty well in school, but not great. I can speak French, but not great. I can speak Korean, but not great. I can sing, but not great. I can design yearbook pages, but not great. I can play badminton/volleyball/basketball/lacrosse, but not great. I can make things alright in PS, but not great. I'm a bit torn. I don't want to be this "average in everything" person anymore...but by GOD AM I LAZY.